Green Eyed Monster

So I have started a new job and i am working crazy hours. Its really good money though so im not in a position to cut down just yet. We are saving for a new place and I would love to be able to get DH a new vehicle in the near future. So far  I am really enjoying this job and my coworkers. It just so happens that one of my coworkers is pregnant. She is one of the few people that I really don't enjoy talking to but I don't know if its because our personality's just dont click or if its because i am incredibly jealous of her.

She just found out the sex of her baby and ITS A GIRL!!!!! yay! ok so i don't really know her well enough to be all excited like everyone else is like people were really interrupting a meeting to talk about it and text her while she was at her U/S. Im just jealous really because this week I would be going into week 19 of my pregnancy that I lost in Nov. So i have already had a little pitty party for myself and went and bought some baby things to torture myself even more lol but anyway so my green eyed monster is just coming out completely. I found a little pair of size 3 pink baby UGGs on sale for $4. I wanted to buy them so badly! Im dying here people! lol

Anyway so the other day I was standing by her and noticed her bump had doubled in the last 48 hours and I kind of told her how her baby was growing so quickly and I asked her what her daughters name was and she was just kind of like "oh we havent even thought that far ahead yet." what?!?!?! I cant even imagine. Im not even pregnant and know what my future childrens names will be? and then I asked her when her due date was and she was unsure like didnt even have a guess. how could you possibly be that far along you are and not even know how many weeks you are! Ugh! anyway so my green eyed monster has come out and I thought I would share. I hope im not the only one who gets this jealous.

I guess the moral of the story is I just need a BFP so I can stop being jealous of every baby and baby bump I see.